One year...!!!

One year…365 days…
Still everything is so fresh in mind…It feels like..”kal hi to mile the..and bye bola tha’..
Time seriously flies…
This one year has proven to be the most happening one and also gave me many learning experiences..
They say forget sad days…but somehow I cannot.. may be yes the intensity of sadness has really gone to a lower state..but yes it’s still there…somewhere..
26th June 2009 –
That day had just one reason for smile that “I am going home..and will be with my parents”
Apart from this..all negatives were present…and yet was somehow maintaining smile ..just because Di,Bhaiya and AD who came to drop me at airport ,constantly reminding me that they want to see me smiling when I step in for boarding..and not crying…
~~After sitting in my flight to home..I was blank..not knowing what is going to happen next..how I will manage without my friends and my job-routine and all those fun moments of HYD …I always want my parents to be happy..and I knew they are..as I was going home..and now will get more time to spend with them…but still as I am too much greedy about people whom I am closed to..I always want everyone to be with me always..and at that time I was going to meet two of the mosttt important people but also leaving behind so many wonderful people who really made a great impact in my life..
Complex situation indeed…
Around 2-3 months passed just like that ..meeting old friends..relatives…telling all about the stories of Satyam..and what all happen…also telling them about my friends ,didi, bhaiya..and all our bonding and funtime at Hyd…
~~Then came the career re-building phase..
Never wanted to go back in to IT filed ..so now what next? And what to do to be In Renewable energy filed..was a quest for that phase…met various people…some motivated me..some just confused me..
Somewhere during that phase I decided to be strong on my decision to leave IT..in spite of so many good offers coming those days from big giants…I was on a ‘Zidd’ to do something in Renewable energy..but again ..was it a job..higher study..consultancy…!!! lots of questions raised..
After meeting many people from that filed…started search for good opportunities….
While doing all these…many changes happened in personal front..as was missing Friends terribly…above all to see all your closed ones struggling for their career and sounding sad on calls..make you feel helpless..
I was not worried about my job much..as I always rate people and family above job and money..but was worried about people for whom -to get a job was a real need of that time..and then some of them wanted to do MBA..so study again for exams that too after 2 years of work-ex was a real tough task for them…instead of helping them. I started feeling sad and upset to see all people in stressed zone..
I used to pray for them and tried hard to be happy during that phase so that I can help them out..
~~Then the phase came where I started applying in various companies ..and then the processes…interviews..waiting…continued….
lots and lots of interviews…but I was not worried about all those matters….I used to take them as a routine…
and I kept on studying about my field…
Meanwhile got chance to meet many of Gujju gang friends on Sarika’s weeding..and also met Rahul from V 6…
Felt too great on that day when I met all of them.. enjoyed truly J
Then the phase came where all friends started getting settled with their new jobs and new MBA college admissions..and the smile again started flowing in group…
Meanwhile got the chance to write in blogger’s space and met very nice people at MoTA..
Also visited places like Kachchh , Lothal , Mumbai and JK during this one year :-D
Then the most wonderful part came when my bro visited Gandhinagar..and I enjoyed with all cousins along with bro… :)
Throughout this so called tough phase my school friends and college EE gang were my strongest supporters..they never askd me about my job..they never asked me how I am missing or any negative questions..but they just kept visiting my home..spending funny and mastikhor time with me .. and helping me in at least vanishing my sadness slowly … I really felt blessed ..and ofcorse my Satyam friends and V-6 … with all silly PJs and comments on our situations…they made all stressed moments lightest …
Yeah..You come to know your closest buddies and your strengths and weaknesses only when you are not in so-good phase.. and that’s what happened..
Today its 26th June 2010..
All friends are settled with their jobs..or MBA..
I have joined new job in my field of interest.. solar energy..and am enjoying my work at its best
Bonding with friends have become stronger..and now it’s like taken for granted..that yeah!! We all are together..
We all are now more stronger and can take any situations in life with ease and can deal them with smile..
The best part I discovered was that during this year..we never hated Satyam..we missed it because we still love it as it was our first job..
We just love HYD ..as It gave us wonderful memories…and we just adore STC for all the smiles it had given us …
I never regretted my decision about joining Satyam..as It taught me so many things..and gave me relations for life time..
Some tears..some smiles…some sadness some happiness….a balanced year…mixed of emotions…
Have written my thoughts on every 26th of month ..after coming home..but never post it..today doing it…as a summary of the year..
Yupp I admit I miss Satyam..HYD…STC.. V 6..My gujju gang…My PG friends..My roomies..didi and bhaiya…. !!! have missed you everyday…
But then .. I remember all good times..and smile comes to my face.. :)

With Lots of love I wish all my friends good luck in life.. and a bigggg thank you for being always with me !! :)

55 fiction

This is a kind of contest
and rules are:->

1. Fifty-five words or less (A non-negotiable rule)
2. A setting,
3. One or more characters,
4. Some conflict, and
5. A resolution. (Not limited to moral of the story)
6. The title of the story is not part of the overall word count, but it still can’t exceed seven words.

For more info: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/55_Fiction

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I tried writing as per these rules...

Story 1:
No more missing
Just like every year, he was sad on that day…sitting alone thinking about what he should have gifted all these years to her ..
And what he has missed so far..
She came , showing gift from brother “ papa, can I tie you Rakhi as bua is not here?”
He smiled with moist eyes.

Story 2

Link
Sitting in lavish office with corporate attire ,with latest technology laptop ,wearing an impression tag of stubborn girl ..
she clicked on the link ..
She shivered ..her eyes got moist..
Suddenly opened the flight booking site ..
Her secretary got shocked to see her..
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She unplugged headphones..
Loudspeaker : “ Mile sur mera tumhara “

That's Me...Smruti!!

Some Q-A about myself ...It's a tagged tradition of MoTA parivaar..thought to share over here also..
Ahha!! After VPP and resigning from satyam..have been preparing a lot for interviews…and see I am giving another HR interview … I am imagining whole MoTA parivar is in panel and staring..when she will start the answers…okie okie…Here they are….
1. What is your passion?
I am passionate about this beautiful life.. I like to be happy and I want people around me also be happy and enjoy…And other passion includes my work in field of green-energy …
2. Cinema and Politics?
Cinema :- yess like it..a source of entertainment…I like to see those movies specially which has sensible humor and based on friendship (like..DCH,JTYJN,3 Idiots)As far as movie-with a message is concerned ,yeah I do like many of them but it depends on mood If I like them or not..( I am sorry but yes..I am a moody person..if I am in a masti zone..I can’t enjoy hi-fi fundawala movie)
Politics:- I believe there are 3 ‘Nitis’- Krishn-Niti, Vidur-niti , Chankya-niti ..on basis of any one a kingdom is govern.But sadly now I don’t find ‘Niti’ itself…no ethics..just mind game..I am not able to understand ..
3. One good thing you want to happen in India, for people – Long term
To have freedom is not much important but to use freedom wisely that is what the main thing is.I wish all Indians start respecting the motherland and stop saying ‘yaha to aise hi hota hai’,’areyy ye India hai yar..aur kya hoga!!’
4. One good thing you want to happen for yourself – Long term
Happy – mastibhari life for me and my family and friends
5. One good thing you want to happen for yourself – Short term
I still get very emotional sometimes about what all happen in the company and how all my friends are now at different places .I want to take this fact more positively.
6. One good thing you want to happen for this community of bloggers – Long term
All MoTA parivar members achieve their long and short term goals and also keep posting about them along with the schedule of party :-)
7. A frank thing you want to say about one of the bloggers here.
Frankly I respect all the Parivar members and enjoy reading your minds via posts. I have interacted with many people here and I have learned a lot many good things from them. Want to meet all of you soon :-)
8. Flirted?
Naah. Never. I feel it’s a time pass.
9. Loved?
Yep! Loved by family and God and I love them more.
I know you all will be like ‘next question’ as no interesting answers found….;)
10. A country you want to visit?
Want to do world tour and of course want to explore our beautiful India as well.(high demands!!…God..Please Read my post and ans no.10 )
11. Belief in God?
Yes, I am not so religious but am spiritual. I don’t like to worship any living person/guru/sant ,I just believe in the supreme power which gives us life and strength to live.
12. One thing you would surely do for to uplift this unfortunate country?
I want to spread message of energy conservation and energy saving along with that want to research on renewable energy sources.
13. One secret about you.
As such no secrets ,people who are closed to me know each and every bit of my life but yes some things I want to share with MoTa parivar
---->I am over possessive about my family.
---->I have a sixth sense and at times It has helped me and at least has warned me about things to be happen. But majority of the times I have ignored it and then have faced the troubles.
---->I like to do imitation of news readers and tv anchors.
---->I talk to myself when I am alone on my zula (swing)
14. Adventure if any in life…
---->Resigning satyam and after that took decision to join the field of my interest –renewable energy ,denying all IT offers was a biggest step.
---->After 7th Jan we used to have one seminar everyday from HR or PM or someone –saying not to worry and all, projects are in pipeline (which remained there only ) – so during one of those sessions I took the mike and told many things which all used to discuss on coffee points but never conveyed to authorities and after I spoke all my gujju gang members also joined me.After that our group was tagged as rebellion by many.
---->During my Nepal trip –there were bandh going on in Nepal and we were not allowed to enter the border. But we took cycle-rickshaw and visited Lumbini (Birth place of Budhh Bhagwan) which was 25 Kms away and throughout our journey we dint see any person because of fear and also saw 2 blasts on our way. But thankfully we reached safely and enjoyed and came back happily too.
---->I slapped one beggar in Sindhi colony who came to snatch my purse.
===========================================================================So…that’s all about me..many known things –some unknown things ..

शब्द संग्राम- Word Series : ‘Memory’

Memory…Where a journey called life gets ‘statue’ order. Experiences throughout our living gets destination at this station-with or without our permission ..

Memory rules our subconscious and sometimes conscious mind...

Smiles and many times smile with a tear ( :’ ) –Thanks to Smiley ..Expressions are easy to understand and convey ) these are the gifts she gives us often.. sometimes she triggers thought process and sometimes makes us dumb àthat’s her power..

We move on but she keeps us connected with past..the more we try to ignore ..the more ,memory will hold our mind tightly..that’s the beauty of memory..

We feel good about old times..we miss moments..but we feel them our true treasure..

Human mind is the toughest part to understand and how we remember things/people/situations are even more complex if we try to analyze…but still forgetting all these ,the fact remains the same.. that mind is the most wonderful gift and memory is the heart of our mind ..

No matter how time has treated us in past..memory of that time will always try to make us realize good part of that situation and will force us to miss that ..

Memory holds different adjectives like good/bad/poor/sharp … but without all these as well she is powerful at her position… & keeps her identity in our life..

From childhood to different stages of life. we are dependent on memory…no matter how positive a person is..memory always makes him to see in past. recall things/people…and that’s normal human tendency..

A small word but holds the whole our world inside..that’s memory..

What’s say??

P.S : I really want to come up with different words (शब्द संग्राम–as my blogname says) which we use almost every day..and their impact on our life..

Please write your ideas as well for the same word..and of course suggestions for any other word..and write views on that new word..and keep this series continue..Hope we all will enjoy … J

Point Blank encounter with Ms.Reality

“To be in shock or to be in a sudden sad zone doesn’t mean that your positive mind has lost the battle ..It means it’s the time to take a look at the strategies of the enemy(not so favorable situations) and think about the next victory-plan :-) "

This is what my mantra towards life is..so may be in this read sometimes you find me scared,sad..but that surely doesnt mean that situations have stolen the smile and positive outlook...

Story is about my mind-state before and after the scam upto 3 months..we were given a lot many lectures during that phase about varios technical and non-technical skills(as we were on bench) and top authorites used to visit us and tried to convince us about the company’s improving situations,we took part in all the support-movement for the company and specially my group used to be in all time positive approach zone (and still it is the unchanged nature of my group-and I am proud about it as that has really helped all of us to think ahead in life with taking learnings from the situations and experiences-good/bad )

This article ,I had written on 7^th April 2009..just after the 3 months of scam..I was facing a total different atmosphere in the company after THE day..and was in a high hopes that all will be well..

Now as almost 1 year of this write up is going to get over..I thought to post it here and then I will probably continue this story from the point I had left it..

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7th April 2009

It’s really shocking for me that I am literally forced by my mind to write on something which I strongly belive is a phase and will surely pass one day…..possibly the force is itself-The Reality..Miss.Reality(What I will call throughout this read)

When I first met or to be precise had an close point blank encounter ..I was in a blank zone..It took time to sink in the thoughts and experiences for me after the real encounter with Ms.Reality here at Hyderabad..Ahh!!! Satyam Hydearabad..

This is the story of my experiences with the real scary..terribly furious and angry Miss..

Wait wait …before your mind starts thinking on something like..”previously Have I ever met reality??..or I was in a imaginary world…??..

Let me clear …It’s always a clear way when everything is going on smoothly and you are in a win-win situation..

But Hey!!! In order to grow as a person you need to pass some deadly (aahh!! Yeah I am exaggerating ;-)) meetings with yes!! Ms.Reality…She will seriously take your super brainstorming session(If you have oneJ) & will lead you with all confusing thoughts..She will try to put “!” or “?” sometimes “??!!” to your smooth clear stream of thoughts..

Destiny was planning my meeting or can say the interview with Miss..Since long (since Dec’08-when the Satyam has taken the lead in all news channels especially in a business bulletin)..But I was not really prepared with my answers and strong will..so I was smartly postponing the meet ..by giving some convincing reasons to myself..[yes! I know I am good at bridging the gap between confusion and satisfaction]

So..for sometime..I thought I have cancelled the face to face meet ..interaction with with Miss..But naah!!She was eagerly waiting to meet me or can say test me on my way..to my first job..

And there she arrived..with a bang!!..though the backstage was silent..her entry shocked the stage like a thunder..I can relate this to the volcano eruption..the deep inside the soil process is going on but you can see –feel the heat only when lava erupts from it..

Anyways coming back to the point..

It was a usual day ..with normal office tasks…date was 7^th January 2009..the new year had just begun with zeal and enthusiasm..unknowing about the future and consequences ..and here she arrives..The big bang news came from the company..that the caretaker himself had cheated the company..the name “sat yam” has drastically proven wrong..the money again had ruled the moral/ethics..the evil inside the human has taken a lead role but again lost his power and admitted or surrendered himself but putting Ms.Reality on our way suddenly…the confession of one person became confusions for the rest..

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Soo..what all happened with my thoughts after that??Did she really scared me?

How long I was in a blank zone??...

If you are really curious about the story ahead ..keep blogging :D..

From :Smruti To: ????????? Subject: Adieu

Hi All,
When I WAS in the company (yupp..!!! from today onwards all past tense..or I should say..all tense moments are now past..;) …) initially when I used to receive mails from colleagues or other known people with the subject “Adieu”(NOTE:all these before THE 7th JAN..:-D)…I used to feel sad .. because It’s always tough to see people leaving place ..and while reading their mails with all the Sento stuff (Ahaaa…I value sentiments …but this word is out of frustration that I dint get chance to share my emotional and memorable moments of the place where I have lived my dreams .ofcourse with a nightmare which woke me up at the end …nywayz..coming to my write up outside bracket ) …

I used to connect myself with their memories..and used to feel happy/sad according to their words written in the mail ..and there my writer-mind (oopss!! I know this word will create two doubts..one-2 posts likh li and Writer..and other does she have mind!!..Ahem!! don’t think much..read my Adieu mail….:-P ) ya..so there my mind used to think that one day when I will leave the company I will write about my experiences of my journey with the company which brought me to the pearl-city with all new hopes ,my routine of ELTP days, great friends who supported me and guided me as and when I felt gap between my electrical nd IT field, INITIAL bench phase where we enjoyed at STC cafeteria, zoo and club house ..

(Now..INITIAL in CAPS ON because our batch was fortunate that our initial bench period lasted till the VPP letter ..and though internal projects did give us chance to be in touch with the technology..the feeling of real project never came..and slowly the enjoyment of bench became Forceful enjoyment and it became worse after THE day as all kind of security checks –like our fixed timings of breakfast and coffee breaks at the time where we were not on any internal projects and simply we used to kill the time by blogging, talking, chatting and reading..in short time pass but with a full proof check on us for ‘not to do any time pass’..) ohhh!! Again am diverted from my planning of ‘adieu’ mail..

ya soo as I was telling about my thoughts on “what I will write in my Adieu mail?’.. my memorable moments like getting first place in training, my first LOA letter , my working as a cultural rep for ‘spot light’ and doing anchoring for the same , my happiness after getting appreciation mails for contributing in satyam foundation, internal project work and my smile after reading comments on my poems in Xpert blogs.. I used to jot down all these wonderful moments and used to think..yeah! I will definetly write all these in my Adieu mail..
Sometimes after getting Adieu mail from people I used to make a list in mind ..list of people who really were/are my biggest strength and I shouldn’t forget their names in my mail…as they really have a great impact on my career at my work place..

Hmmm…but all these lists..memorable moments..remained in my mind only..as when today It’s my time to send “Adieu” mail..they have blocked my iMail since 5 days and above all because of THE day and aftershocks after that like VPP and all…things changed drastically…making everyone’s life different…

Also this was merely just a formality of “Adieu” as the real ‘good-byes’ have already done on sad notes on the day when we all friends left HYD for home..without leave..and without ‘aasha’ of arey! Is bari gharse kya khana le k aayegi??’ fun…with all doubts about what’s next and when all will be together again..

As Time is the biggest solution..and 8 months is a long span to get along and digest the abrupt ending of the journey of around 9000 people…today with God’s grace all my friends have found another way towards success.. :-)

But yesterday while pressing ‘EXIT’ button in eSupport portal ..All my lists and planning of “Adieu” mail came into my mind..also all the splendid moments spent at the company flashed into mind…I also thought that no matter what happened the name will be always remembered as my first job place..and smile will always come to face thinking about all the wonderful memories the company gave..

But…
Just one complain I have with it is..It dint give me a chance to thank people and also took my chance of sending “Adieu” mail…and yeahh!! I missed my farewell party L at STC cafeteria with cakes and Puff-samosa and cold drinks… :P :D

Chalo..koi baat nahi…life hai..chalta hai… :D

I would like to thank blog-sphere for giving me at least space where I expressed my sadness ;) of not able to send my Adieu mail.. ;-)
And yeahh..now as all Adieu mails have last common line so here is mine
“Enjoy life..keep smiling..and be in touch “ (yupp!! Same like all mails..no creativity in that as before I start thinking on my probable ending of ‘Adieu’ mail after reading some1 else’s I was at home with my VPP letter..soo dint get time to think about it..hehehe)
Now formal mail-ending..
With Regards,
Smruti Gandhi
Out of IT(now I am just B.Tech Electrical with work ex of 2.3)
contact me at MoTA and smrutzthoughts.blogspot.com . :D

LEAVING OR LIVING LIFE!!!!

When I was in Hyderabad ,I used to go at STC..It’s a long journey and you need to cross some villages to reach there..so you find combo of nature and technology along your way.. And while coming back from office ..I used to think about the whole day and usually I used to write my thoughts as a text message draft..And If I am in mood on weekends I used to write it into my diary elaborating the message ; )..Yesterday was just flipping the pages and found these two observations I wrote long back..
That day also I had not written any conclusion and today also I am not judging anything..these are just some of the thoughts ..situations..which we come across in our journey called life..
Here we go… my observations of that day..on my way back to home from STC..

Scene 1: Usual office end timings..perfect corporate outfits..properly combed hairs..hand bag with multiple credit cards ..discount coupons …bills of some hi-fi malls… greeting people ( in spite of cursing them on their back) …pretending that they are the most “cool” ..care free dudes/gals of the town…showing off 2-3 mobiles which they carry..and yeah not to forget the “Tansen” part of their personality..arre!!! the “I-pod” effect ( acting like as if they know all raag-sur-taal)… In short a ‘perfecto scenario’ of a modern life which was the most awaited wish of them..
But wait a minute………
All those stuff are external features of some creatures which we call mankind ooops!!! Urban –modern-knowledgeable breed of the society..but what’s going on in their upper portion of head that’s also an interesting thesis topic..
face with the plastic smile -can measure in ‘centimeters’ …mind in tension of the next day..or “what to do after going home?”..list of “To do’ things…pending tasks… listing the chains of relatives need to be called that day…recalling that whose b’day or wedding date they forget to wish..planning what reasons to be said after calling…
that’s it..the usual day starts with a lot of worries..and ends with them..oh!! of course not to mention every day bank balance gets new green food as well..so only the troubles seems smaller sometimes…but then too cursing destiny for what they won’t have…aiming aimlessly ….

Scene 2: End of the day..cloths smelling ..disheveled hairs..one kaput bag with wage earned that day..walking as if thanking God for the day and enjoying the transition of evening to night…watching the setting sun ..sometimes humming the folk track or some prayers…
Back of the mind thinking about their loved ones waiting for them at home..thinking about what they’ll buy from the li’l amount they earned today…smiling silently with the thought that one of the necessary things they can now afford to buy…and telling one’s self that tomorrow will be another day where they will go for work and will help the family in being happy..
No cursing destiny…accepting the simple normal routine life and smilingly enjoying it aswell…..

Sooo……these are the two observations..extreme one…..!!!

But As I always believe ..at the end of the day what really matters is how much smile you have spread among people.. :)
So don’t worry much If you are not doing the job which you like the most…but atleast try to be happy ..as life is special..and It’s our right to enjoy it..:)
Isn’t it??…
So..Keep smiling..and keep rocking!! :)